If it is as I believe, then this is the last post that I’ll write on this blog.
I was never a great contributor, but I had some moments, I believe, where my words made it through. My hope is that even with this disbanding, some may be inspired to pick up the gauntlet in the world of New Evangelization.
In the two or perhaps three posts I wrote on this blog, I never truly went for the personal level, but here I shall “descend to it”, having lost the ability to retain a higher objectivity in the light of this finale. Far be it from me to be devoid of any emotion when I write here for the one of the last times.
I screwed up, lost another friend, lost someone vital. As a highschooler, the world I saw was a world of blacks and whites, and good and evil were clearly defined. As I venture into my college years, grey matter takes hold, and that which was true starts to sink into nothingness. The dreams I had are nothing without friendship, and as such, sorrow fills my heart every time that I lose someone. Foolish words that rend the truth asunder, a knowledge of the needs of others somehow lacking.
As Father Nathan Cromly puts it: “Love is the bridge across which truth walks.”
How true that is, that only in love are we able to reach anyone else. Strangers are closed off, guarded against one another, but friends speak plainly with one another. The hearts become linked, there is an understanding of the other, a recognition of “another me”.
As such, in that recognition, we desire what is best for the other, and that is where love comes in. Too many times, I have failed to show love to others, but I am growing still further, as is every human.
Life is a pursuit of perfection, a growth to the summit that we know is beyond us.
Confident in the Lord’s mercy, we continue to try, hoping against hope that at the end of our strength, unable to earn the peak through our own merits, He will reach down in his love and mercy, and lift us up to greatness with him.
This is my hope for you who read this, that you will hold fast to the truth of love, and truth itself. Too often, we settle for what is too little, whether it be in relationships, in our dreams, in life in its entirety. Why grasp at scraps, when one can eat of the fullness of life?
People will fail you, you will fail people. No matter what we do, there will always be some area in which our needs are not met, or we miss and fail to see to the needs of others. This doesn’t mean that we should give up on them, nor they on us, but at some point, there is a place where one needs to truly discern letting go, when they realize that they are at their limit.
This is where the Catholic side comes in. When all else fails, God is there, and His Love comes to you in its fullness, recognizing your fullness as body and soul.
And no matter how lost you may seem, He is there for you, as a father comforts his children. I hope you run to Him in times of distress. I hope my own feet are swifter than time, my own will more perfectly united to His, that others may see God within me, and go to Him, not I. That is my purpose, to be Christ to others, that through the universality of the Church, of His Body, the entire Person may be brought to completion. That all may be one.
There is more I wish I could say, but it seems I have not the words for it. Know this however: I am a human, a sinner, a wanderer, a hoper, a dreamer, a lover, a fighter… a Catholic forever.